and i smiled….and laughed…then cried.- bY GARYNELLE
and i smiled….and laughed…then cried.
i
thought i was gonna cry. i kept this decision at bay because i feared
the pain of goodbyes, the melancholy that often precedes the last wave
of my hand.
i tend to miss anything even before i take my leave. that’s why, most of the time, i keep on holding on.
but things happen sooner and much more different than expected.
so
last night, after dave and i found the 3 kinds of rock for belle’s
project, we opened our mailbox first before i answered the phone, then
i took a deep breath.
when they asked me what are my plans, i said,
"I FINALLY AM RESIGNING."
no
second-thoughts, heavy with kidney painkillers, i said i am leaving
convergys for good. after 23 months. a month short of two goddamn years.
was that a drug induced courage?
i think not.
when i hung up the phone, i looked up and saw dave’s smile, brimming with understanding, support and love.
then i am not afraid anymore.
we will make it through, somehow.
this goodbye was not as painful as i thought it would be. my goddamned kidneys are, though.
i need a double-shot of demerol……..
